“I’m not overreacting! I’m doing what any reasonable person would do in this situation…”
I'm Lemonade-ing
Lemonade
*My writings for this page are still being worked on as I continue to work on this project. Please enjoy the first half.
A journey through grief. The ability to forgive yourself.
Beyonce’s 2016 album “Lemonade” spoke to me during a pivotal time of my life. I saw a parallel to my own story. My story is about being portrayed by people close to you but also about cheating oneself.
As of 2023, this series is not finished as I have yet to finish this journey myself. With this series of paintings, I hope to further the connection that the album has brought in pop culture. I hope to achieve this by either exposing Lemonade to people who do not know the importance of this album in pop culture, or to give someone familiar with this work a new perspective.
“I was served lemons, but I made lemonade.” – Hattie White
Intuition
“I tried to make a home out of you. But doors lead to
trapdoors. A stairway leads to nothing.”
A fellowship was made under the guise of acceptance and solidarity. Now as the days pass, this cold and distant reality comes more and more vivid.
“You can taste the dishonesty
It’s all over your breath
as you pass it off so cavalier.”
I know my presence in no longer welcome. Yet I’m trapped, tangled in your broken promises.
“Constantly aware of it all”
When will I be sent away? When will I be told to leave?
“Pray to catch you whispering
I pray you catch me listening.”
I can only imagine the conversations being held behind closed doors. Are they jealous of our connection? No, the connection is severed and I’m left in the dark waiting for confrontation.
With the immanent heartbreak I wait for the fire to come to
me, yet it doesn’t.
“What are you doing, my love?”
Denial
“I’m not overreacting, I’m doing what any reasonable person would do in this situation… I’m Lemonade-ing.” – Titus
The first response to heartbreak.
Anger
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Apathy
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